ENTRY : facade_

today spells b-o-r-i-n-g again. did some pchem notes for f 5 hours long ! ahahs yet i still have 2 more units to complete nd tys to attempt. halfway through was having nausea. went to the toilet nd almost puked pls :\ lucky thing its over now.


// bought those shoes alrd hehh. i got the green heels one just last week.

// nd this is the bag i thought of getting at first. hmm.

// but change of mind. these are the ones i'm planning to get now ! hehh. dumb drawings.

me WANT my NIKE bagbagbag. yumyums [: can i get it tmr or something, mum ? pretty please lol. ( i'd have to pay it myself though )

oh did i mention i lost my purple specs ? yes, i haven't seen it for days ! it's supposedly lying somewhere in the house but i've been finding to no avail. ahh so dead.

You are Spongebob Squarepants;
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never want to loose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never understand your feelings. Life is a journey it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people then you will be stress-free.

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last nyte out, i saw a girl who looked like cindy. really. no offence LOL.
hahah i realised how funny friends can be.

; shirleen. // says:
but if i carry, i wld look like a monster
over the moons nd cows. says:
LOL

i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
why
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
i look gay is it

over the moons nd cows. says:
i never see guys go diet b4
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
now you see
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
ok?

over the moons nd cows. says:
bye boy boy
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
bye girl girl

the end ! cya.
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ENTRY : over the moon nd cow.

hello hello ((: can you see that i'm quite HAPPY now ? hehehh.

by the way, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JASLYN ! it was on the 28th deember. i had forgotten to wish her. sorry mummy, shoot my head pls.

band was f long hours yesterday ! yes i was late. haha. nd mr de hamel had to embarrass me infront of the whole band urgh. what stupid 'angelina jolie's' lips. sheesh. ended near evening nd i went home with chokky. had to rush back nd get changed to go out. went to isetan scotts for private sales ! yumyums.

despite being f crowded inside, i managed to do some shopping :DD because mum paid for all expenses !

JOOP blackndpurple jacket 59.90 41.90
LEVIS squarecut"pauline"skinny jeans 129.50 90.65
PINK:IND pinkpanthershoes 32.00 22.40

all are discounted prices alrd ((: quite saddening i didn't get a top nd NIKE bag though, but finally i've got new stuff lols. i'm still saving up till reach 90 bucks just for it. -faints.

had band practise in the morning, did sectionals nd all. pretty tiring hahah. then went to have lunch with marcia at prata shop. yumm mmm. we kept listening to "knock it down" lol very funny. went home nd pigged till now. ahahs nd now mum just called to ask me do some grocery shopping to make for her a HUGE portion of salads to bring to her office tmr. oh mann, better go off now.

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back from the supermarket opposite hahahs. bought many many greens etc. oh nd my peach flavoured MOCHI too xDD there wasn't any mint ones. rarrhh. then mum helped me to change my mirror which broke hurr.
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ENTRY : oh the kachinks-

so materialistic.

decided. instead of the PONY shoulder bag, i want that NIKE sling. the outstanding one with red nd grey patches ((: yumyumm. it's still too expensive though. pfft. why can't mum agree to help me out just a little huh ?

maybe i could wait. use those old bags on the first week of school nd see if anyone has my wanted bag alrd. if alls clear, i'll get it mann ! lol. i sound so typical singaporean.

hello i am ms ugly freak [: yumyum. says:
there goes my money. ITS FLYING CINDY
Miss POON* says:
HAHA! yea. its 'flying without wings'

sales for my pinkpanther's shoes ends on the 31st. oh mann. better decide fast.

left band practise halfway through for legion meeting with my juniors. gave them lollipops. then went home by train with teressa, nd she's so funny pls ! ehehehhehs :DD we saw this fat woman with this super mini skirt that shows her super big thighs. see alrd can faint ahahs. i think she knows we were laughing at her lahh. but nvm.

slept till evening to get something from syy at raffles place. supposedly to go out with mum after that. but after waiting for some tym, she called to say she cannot make it :\ i was quite upset since i bought a pastry for her on the way thinking she might want to have a snack. sheesh wasted my money nd tym. so i went to orchard walk around until it stopped raining nd came back here.

Miss POON* says:
oh ya! you kw santa claus is a HOKKIEN
hello i am ms ugly freak [: yumyum. says:
serious ?!
Miss POON* says:
yea! cos he says 'hohoho' which means 'good good good' in hOkkien.

; shirleen. // says:
hi mama
hello i am ms ugly freak [: yumyum. says:
hi grandpa
; shirleen. // says:
haha

; shirleen. // says:
charliee brown and pink panther can get married.
charliebrown nd pinkpanther can be friends [: the same goes for mickey nd pooh says:
hehehh

charliebrown nd pinkpanther can be friends [: the same goes for mickey nd pooh says:
let's worry until we stress
; shirleen. // says:
DONTWANT
; shirleen. // says:
STREESS WILL HAVE PIMPLES POOPPING LIKE POPCORNS
charliebrown nd pinkpanther can be friends [: the same goes for mickey nd pooh says:
HAHHAHHA

okay. tmr's band full-drills urgh, tiring. got to pass money to fiona for her x'mas gift lol. nd the other way round too. then maybe also able to go to the private sale at isetan scotts with mum to do shopping ((: yayy i want.

p.s saddening news from monday's program. austin is OUT of projectrunway ! my gosh. what happened to my gay love ? that wendy deserves to be given a hard smack on the butt.

ENTRY : nobody gonna love me better.

went out with my family w/o brother, first to IMM to look at stuff then to bugis for some shopping. we didn't buy new year's clothes because they were not really in the mood :\ so i only got a basic top from U2 instead. cousin bought her billabong bag nd sis chose a nike sling which mum's going to get for her soon. nobody bothered to get anything for me ! so f urgh. i want to get that nike one though, need to save 90 bucks for it. to top it off, i saw pink:industrie's shoes at 32 which i liked. i remembered that i'll have to buy my senior's nd junior's present too, around 40. where am i going to find cash at this tym mann ?!

not a good tym with mum today. so bitch. forget it. tmr's band nd legion meeting in the morning. spells B-O-R-I-N-G. then i've got to meet up with syy. anyway, i took the tests since i was kind of bored :

Natalie, you're a player because you are Cool.

Yup, there's no doubt about it - you're just about as cool as they come. You've got a great sense of who you are and what you want out of life, whether that's becoming a rock star, fashion plate, heartthrob, or America's next top model.

Not one to sit back and watch life happen, you're not afraid to do your own thing and take some chances to get you moving in the right direction. While others are struggling to keep up with the latest and greatest fads, you're making your own trends and looking sizzling while you're at it. Now that's hot!

Natalie, your Casanova is the Rebel

Hey there, party girl! Always on the lookout for the bad boy in the crowd, you like your Casanova complete with imagination, heart, humor, and lots of attitude. Cool and confident, you're attracted to people who aren't afraid to speak their minds and stir up a little trouble here and there. It keeps things interesting — that's for sure.

Pay attention to rules? Not a hot tamale like you! You're way too busy trying new things, meeting people, and having a good time to follow in someone else's footsteps. Good thing your sexy rebel can blaze his own path, too!

Scorpio Overview

You won't easily forget 2005, Scorpio, for a host of mostly positive reasons, and 2006 will be much the same. In fact, right from the start -- thanks to a burst of energy straight from Jupiter -- you'll be active, busy and amazingly passionate. The best part is that just about everyone (including and especially the powers that be) will be not only open to your ideas, but also eager and anxious to know what's on your mind and in your heart. For the first two months of the year, you'll be able to talk just about anyone into just about anything -- even if you've already tried and failed in the past. Keep that in mind, regardless of whether your aims are personal, platonic or professional. Basically, you'll be logically lethal until the middle of March; even then, the odder the situation, the easier it will be for you to present it to anyone and everyone as perfectly normal. Right around the solar eclipse at the end of March, you may even be able to talk someone into sponsoring a venture that will put you in charge of your own business. Needless to say, finances won't be terribly difficult for you to manage for most of 2006 -- your superiors will be practically in love with you, and even more infatuated with your work performance.

Speaking of infatuation, be careful during September and October. A 'casual' flirtation could turn into something far more serious around that time. Of course, if you're single and the feelings are mutual, forget being casual -- be intense! (It's your specialty, after all.) If you're happily attached, be even more intense. Your partner will be delighted to get closer to you, to listen to your deepest thoughts and secret emotions, and to share their own, as well.

In addition to giving of yourself, you'll want to give back in other ways toward the end of the year. If you're inclined to spoil your loved ones with material things, especially during December, think of what your mailbox may be filled with come February. Instead of objects, fill your life and the lives of everyone around you with enriching experiences.

Preference by Signs

BOOKS :
As the Sign of Death, Scorpio can not so surprisingly handle the metaphysical and more abstract quite well. Books that fit into the categories of drama, suspense and horror will stimulate your penetrating mind. Anais Nin ranks among your top choice for intensity, and Anton Chekov’s plays will stimulate your curious mind.

CAREER :
Analyst, Bill collector, Biochemist, Censor, Coroner, Criminologist, Debtor, Detective, Distiller, Diver, Doctor, Enforcer, Excavator, Funeral director, Garbage collector, Plumber, Hypnotist, Insurance agent, Investigator, Lab technician, Miner, Pathologist, Private investigator, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Researcher, Scientist, Security guard, Surgeon, Tax collector, Undertaker, Union leader, Vocational counselor

CHOCOLATES :
Can't resist rubbing them all over their partner and licking it off.

FOOD :
Scorpio is all about intensity. The Scorpion wants food bursting with powerful flavors like basil, cinnamon, curry, garlic and ginger. If possible, the food should be deep red in color. As a Water Sign, though, there's still some element of Scorpio wanting food that reminds them of home.

MOVIES :
The intense Scorpion loves a mystery and a challenge. You probably prefer when the viewer needs to figure out for themselves what's going on in the movie. You’re likely to check out The Blair Witch Project, Eyes Wide Shut, The Shining, The Game, American Beauty or A Clockwork Orange.

MUSIC :
Intense and with a sting, the Scorpion wants music they can dive into. For name alone, you should try Electronic Trance, by artists like Ghost in the Machine and trance control. For more mainstream Scorpios there are the danceable sounds of Massive Attack, Moby, Orbital and the Chemical Brothers. In the P.M., pop in some contemporary R&B for a good time.

RESTAURANTS :
The tenacious Scorpio prefers to keep a routine and not be bothered with big meals, which might take them off course and off their itinerary. Your strong constitution will enable you to try a wide variety of dishes.

SPORTS :
The cunning and resilient Scorpio enjoys sports that test their mettle and require strategy and endurance. Investigate extreme sports, marathon running or chess.

TRAVEL :
Angola, Antigua, Costa Rica, Monaco, Spain, Turkey, Washington, D.C.

TELEVISION :
Always ready to solve a mystery, the Scorpion becomes entranced by the slowly unraveling narrative of the X-Files. On other days, they might tune in to see the adventures of Sherlock Holmes and try to outthink the great detective before each episode's end.

ENTRY : photograph by nickleback

got back home from shirleen's chalet, pretty fun i suppose ? hahahs. too much to say. went to the arcade to play too ! cindy must be feeling high ahems. we played mahjong, bluff, etc. had jollyshandy, breezer nd champagnes. there was bbq nd all. i didn't forget to go churchh too, even if it turned out really boring. oh yes ! we went for interesting midnyte walks for 2 days ((:


// a beautiful mistake. lol fucking nonsense.

tired out. droopy eyes. i stupidly fell asleep in the train nd those filipino maids were laughing at me :\ wtf ? nd i feel so bad because i didn't meet syy today urgh. pigged out till evening nd went out to eat at sakae yumm mmm. then dad brought home pizza too ! feeling bloated pls.

before i forget; MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE ND ALL ! there's 12 days till it's officially over. hohoho.

ENTRY : LVL 1

3 days till christmas ((:

went to town for a short while. sister nd cousin went to the arcade at lucky plaza. had to return the library books at taka anyway, so i just thought i'd look around forever21 nd MANGO for sales hahah. since i bought the seventeen mag yesterday, it came with a 20% discount card for forever21 :DD nd i saw some tops i liked so i shall put it to good use soon ! now's time to save money again, bahh.

MANGO doesn't seem to have the jacket i liked anymore ! rarrh ): maybe i should try checking other shops just in case. it was even featured in the mag ! hehh. mum said it was rather nyce too. the price is also ahem. nyce.

levelone sent a mail again ! regarding boxing day, when i'll be able to do redemptions with my points accumulated ((: that's good huh. but i also need to update my membership card asap before the end of december. hrmm.

this is such a dumb entry. BOO. okay tmr's the fun day ! haha. toodles.

ENTRY : the brand new.

nothing much on this boring wednesday. just thoughts of going back to school :
the BAD side is that _

tym is running out. i haven't completed my homeworks. no revision done yet. i'm growing fatter. nd i will be wearing my purple specs to school. so by the tym i'm back there, i can be a laughing stock sort of freak.

the NOT SO BAD side is that _

i can see my dear friends again. yayy. it'll be tym for my saving plans for good uses. won't be lazing around so much. maybe i could join TAF for fun again. hurhurr. oh how i miss those tyms running every alternate days, it brings smiles. lol.

okay. i've done with my new year's resolution alrd. nd it's tym for my favourite show; america's next top model ! see you around.

ENTRY : dirty little secret-

legion was cancelled last minute today but we the draw-lots thing for the gift exchange. they like my lollipops ! ehehehhehs :DD

went to tiong bahru plaza macs for study group with kim nd jayne. quite fun lols. but we did very little notes for p.chem lahh :\ then walked around before they left for the train at around 8 nd i walked home.

fun tym at home fooling around haha. they got quite irritated with me. bahh. who cares.

ENTRY : checkered stripes !

a f cold weather this morning. marcia nd i went to bugis to look around before going to band chalet at safra resort. we went to the seaside walking barefooted ! lol quite nyce. stayed til evening to play card games nd watched mtv channel. super funny pls hahah ! so sad we couldn't stay over. then i bought shir's stuff nd wrapping papers at tiong bahru before coming home.

chatting online with some friends. someone spelled my name wrongly :\ nvm haha. i'm so looking forward to this friday ! yeah mann. oh there should be legion tmr i suppose. then i'll be going for study group ltr on in the afternoon ((: yay. now i shall better go read those fanfics i promised to syy :DD ehehehhehs.

oh myy. i'm so broke ): need money again. otherwise it'll be difficult getting those presents. sigh.

ENTRY : dashing diva.

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stupid bitch mum. said i should get my allowance from dad instead, nd kept insisting i have atm card when i lost it ages ago pls. then got angry just because i washed the dishes slow, as in one at a tym. i was making sure that i cleaned properly what. she pushed me away from the sink nd told me off. what's her f problem being so moody these days.
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went to churchh mass with jaslyn for the last 20 minutes of it hahah. then we had tuition after that at 201, today's lessons was supposedly much better. jaslyn had to leave for taka so me nd syy decided to go tm. we ate at shihlin's yumm mmm ! nd took prints too ((: there was unlimited tym for decorating since we hogged the machine when nobody else was in the neoprint shop. pretty fun.

ENTRY : tangles of love-

junior curia nd AGR today was kind of interesting ((: met alena nd gave her chocolates since it was her birthday today. went with her to st michael's church where it was to be held, but on the way there we were lost ? hahah. was surprised my dear juniors came for AGR too. the funny thing was they thought i put makeup mann lol. we had games with other praesidiums from other schools, nd i liked it when girls are rough. woohoo. came in third ehehehhehs :DD cool huh.

ended early so walked around toa payoh inter with maxine nd audrey. took a train to orchard for fun to past tym. the place was f crowded :\ family was still busy watching king kong urgh. then they made me go to douby ghaut nd walk a long distance to meet them mann. like wtf ? mum even shouted so many tyms over the fone when i had directions problem. had dinner together without my brother lol.

then went back to opposite tiong bahru plaza. wanted to buy school shoes but sister wants converse. sheesh. we got stationeries nd books at popular for the upcoming busy year. bought many stuff i guess. nd there's this guy as assistant who sort of keeps following me pls. kind of irritating freaky. after that we chilled at coffeebean nd got ourselves the ice blended chocolate drinks xDD too good to be true hahahahhs.

tmr's another lesson of amath sighs. got to go churchh for mass with jaslyn too hehehehh. tatas.

ENTRY : memories remain.

shopped at cityhall again. there was still sales at MANGO ! hehh. got myself 2 basic tops. then bought chocolates for alena nd lollipops from candyempire ((: all those lovely candies, i want to go back there again soon.

saw 2 more items i'd like to get from MANGO. a half-jacket nd another off-shoulder top, but priced at 49 nd 36 each :X after discount somewhat. i'll just dream for it hurr.

syy said i shouldn't go shopping myself :\ but what to do ? don't think there was anyone available to go out with me. but of course. so f pls.

ENTRY : the facade.

midnyte ghost shows are f scary pls. i think there's another one today hahs.

slept at 0631 nd woked up by 1030 :\ had awful panda's eyes for once. left the house to meet clarissa nd fiona to get charlene's farewell gift. shopped around nd finally settled on the VERY BIG bear, a pretty horn hfone keychain nd a simple card. how thoughtful of us eh ? ehehehhehs :DD had to get a farewell card for my junior too. it cost 7.80 for that one card pls. then we ate at fish & co's. yumm mmm. the fish there is effing good. but the portion was too much even though we shared. hehh. had a fairly good tym out i guess. was home earlier than expected.

tmr's bad. don't feel like going out actually. no one who would want to go suntec with me, is there ? hahah. i'm going to be like a 'wandering soul' again shopping around, then to the candyempire to get chocolates ((: by then, i would be broke. sighs.

i had some random thoughts. how f stupid.

ENTRY : OUR LADY PEACE_

laid in bed till evening around 1800 doing nothing. then went to grillers for dinner yumm mmm. such a boring day i tell you. alrytes, i'll leave short messages on this entry then.

JONATHAN.
happy birthday to oppa ((: 16 now huh. do take care alrytes. although i'm still a little annoyed about some stuff today, u have a fun tym tmr ah ! hahah.

MY SWEETS.
are you okay ? i read your blog just now. it was kind of hostile :\ quite a scare to me i tell you. supposedly i've made u upset, i'm really really sorry girl. if ever you need someone. i'm here ya. nd i know, the fucking black days.

SYY.
okay, i've fallen for you. who am i kidding ? ehehehhehs xDD no lahh, i love you okay ! nd i miss talking to you alrd >:(

TIFFANY.
hello ms pretty ! how's the secretchokkyfamily nd the future house ah ? lol. i'm angry about the fucked up 2 girls still, aren't you. anyway, missing the chance doesn't make u dumb okay ? oh yes. nd do turn on your hfone 24/7 next tym please. hahahahhah.

CINDY * AGNES.
i miss my girlfriends. where are the both of you ? rarrhh. hehh.

theDIRECTIONS.
you know who you all are ! lols. how are you guys ? i so miss the outings together, very much i say. especially to ws macs ((: we must go out again soon alrytes. have yummy fries too hahh. school's starting soon. see you soon my dears !

ENTRY : the brightest star i've ever seen-

after legion this morning, i took the train back with ms raju. she have lots of interesting stories to share hahah. in the end i didn't go out with the girls :\ whatever lahh nvm.


here's a f up picture i took lol, i like it because of the colour combi. was watching youtube videos hehh. darn retarhded pls. ah wells, yes definitely the days will be bleak, with so much stuff to handle.

found another great band OUR LADY PEACE. nd here's THE BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE's my reminder. it's a nyce song with meaningful lyrics, really. i've just fallen for it ((:

The years have gone by fast,
oh how we have grown
The times weren't always easy,
but hearts and minds revive
now thoughts of you consume me,
and I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen

Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.

The miles will pull apart,
and I will not lose sight
Of the gift, that I've been handed
Been blessed so much but why?
I feel so undeserving,
but I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen

Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.

All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll give you everything
All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll honor you forever

Like the sun that never sets
The brightest shining star, you're the brightest
shining star I've ever seen.

Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.

ENTRY : black day_

the telly blasted in the morning nd i couldn't sleep more than 11 hours. cousin was stiff bored at home so at 0300 i went out with her to town, since she isn't familiar with the place that well. we took a bus down, kind of fast. first stop at fareast. bought for her the puffies nd she shared her shihlin's tempura. yumm mmm. then shopped around, bought some stuff. on to lido, got a galatissimo shake. it's kind of nyce, should try it. cousin walked away from me nd got asked by people for donations :\ she gave 7 bucks lahh, that silly girl. then went to wisma to get her roxy pencil case. she envied mine that's why, hahahahh. kidding. went home early after that.

i was wondering nd pondering while eating the bananas nd fooling with it. why name it BANANA ? nd who started alphabets nd made up all these words? f shit questions mann.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
U LOVE ME SO MUCH
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
I LOVE U TOO

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
so yeah. im FREE OF CHARGE
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
dun paste that in ur blog pls.

hehh my lovely friend ((: i just realised i've got school tmr nd MAYBE out with the girls ltr on. you see, it isn't confirm yet. nd i'm not loaded with cash. rarhh. went to read the bitch's blog my sister showed me. hmm hmm. she also went to that place i went before, nd we supposedly think that her mum paid for it all. her mum likes to show her off. so now her friendster is like bombarded with stuff. sister commented it was sluttish. okay i won't be so mean. she might have grown slightly fat, but still have those pretty eyes.

shirleen let's have a BLACK DAY together. missyou.

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omg. i'm watching two retarhded shows. the first was 'frazier' nd now is 'whos line is it anyway'. there was 'project runway' earlier. nd the gay named austin looks good, though should be a gay lahh. am f bored. it's 0131 now i can't sleep. bahh.
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ENTRY : fuck YOU.

went the 0930 mass but obviously was late :\ met some people there. then left for n2 macs to do the amath tuition work with syy. she's so HIGH today mann, joked so muchh. she was messaging me, nd here's part of an sms.

" .. he said im fat! n he make fun of my name! say me yingying he yingyang caz yinyang!! bastard gigglo sia. "

oh yes, we were laughing nd making fun of her black monk-like beads too hahha. found another racist person, ms chan. she called those muslim boys 'ninja turtles' because of their green uniforms, hehh. lesson ended late like usual so i took a bus with chuwen, rushed to meet jon hahah. so retarhded of me, i tell u. said to meet in the first carrier when i was like in the middle of the train ? i squeezed through a few times until i got stopped by the sudden large crowd from tanah merah nd got quite pissed lahh. so i dropped off at payar lebar to catch a second train.

" first thing u meet then alrd take out the money.. basket.. "

nd people were looking. i felt like a. nvm. they left for town i guess; weird people hahahahh. very :\ so i went home early nd got seriously bored to death. i thought, singapore expo here i come lols. i must be the f silliest person to go out myself. why not when i have nothing to do ? however, i realised the place sucks please. was alrd home when mum called to tell me she was at heeren ! wtf. she could have told me earlier so i could join her for shopping although i'm not really in the mood.

i feel so dead today. i'm kind of drained of all strength emotionally + physically. nd i don't know why. i may laugh nd smile, but the truth is hidden. strange, seems like something is amiss. i'm feeling stupid. i won't tell or say anything more.

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am i such a TURN-OFF ?
do i really look like a BITCH ?
is it true that i do behave like a BIMBO ?
am i very STUPID ?
do i look plain UGLY ?
is it so difficult to be my FRIEND ?
am i that HATEFUL ?
do people really find me so DETESTABLE ?
is it better if i didn't EXIST ?

omg. going madd, aren't i ? hurt all over. am feeling BLACK. yes, those dull days might be returning. i don't deserve friends. i have no love no heart. i don't seem to care much to surroundings. i do hate to be alone, but of course not many knows. i may look strong nd all. but what shit crap, the lies. i'm afraid to cry. my eyes hurt enough. maybe i could replace everything by laughing it off. fucked up life, i want to die pls.

enough said. maybe just too paranoid. i better keep it all to myself. i really don't know what's got into me. FUCK IT ALL. fuck you.
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ENTRY : PUSH THE BUTTON

ate kfc with grandma nd had a chat with her this afternoon ((: it has been a long time since we were this close. the rest weren't with us as they've got their own plans today. sad huh. then walked passed some guys so i accidentally heard their conversation since they talked loud.

" chey ! thought what. her whole image spoil already lahh. "
" .. back view not bad. no, side view nyce.. "
" but she turn around front view not nyce ! "

// like what the fuck ? hahahahh.

then waited for darlingg at cityhall to go town hehh. her brother was there too, he seems like a nyce chap ! lol. at fareast, snacked at han's. we walked for many many rounds please. ms shirleen couldn't decide on a proper hair salon :\ hurr. so from pacific plaza to fareast, we went off to heeren nd cine. took prints, played the shooting thing :DD but sadly, only passed chapter 1 nd died mann. dumbass. took the train down to bugis. she went to chapter2 for a haircut. oh yes, the young guy working there is cute xDD then was quite late so i sent her off to mrt station while i went to shop at bugis street. took a darn long time nd finally settled on a skirt. there wasn't a black one anymore but nvm >:( went back quite contented, reaching home at 2100. HAHAH. mummy gave me a nyce pink glittery lipgloss just now, ehehehhehs. hrmm. well let me introduce syy my friend ! i was having a conversation with her.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
omg
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
ur dp scaring me
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
haha !
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
change it pls!!!!
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
PLS
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
i lyk it
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
im scared
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
PLS

// so i changed it to another. but she replied.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
OMG
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
WORSE
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
NATALIE
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
PUT A NICE PIC PLS
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
NO DOLLS

// ahhh. so i had to put my pet sheep ahah. rawrrs. then she said.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
U TOLD CINDY I WAS SCARED OF UR DP
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
EVIL GIRL.

hahahahahh ! oh mann. another funny mate i love :DD meeting her before tuition to do my amath work. i still can't figure it out, somehow forgotten what i've learnt last 2 weeks. anyways, st andrew's school band performing at lau pa sat tmr 1930. also, ROCKIN' XMAS III taking place at substation from 2-10pm by rock bands ((: seems nyce eh ? its $8 presale nd $10 at door. second storey is performing too !

ENTRY : i believe you-

in life, do we follow our dreams; or do we follow the environment ?

woked up late today, nothing much to do. nd oh myy, when shirleen smsed around 0854, i was still asleep lol. watched some spongebob series nd the corpse bride movie with my sister. was reading 2 interesting yet incompleted online stories nd i shared them with my friends ahahhs. here's the link : ibelieveyou ((: when you're free, do take time to read it ! it's lovely. anyway, then darlingg nd i chatted. were kind of bored :
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
nopes. i only allow my bf to hold my hand.
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
nopes. you are not my bf
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
nopes. im not your gf and you are not my bf
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i.. hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
(EHH. what she say ah.. i shall guess k)
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
LOL

ehehehhehs. she has another funny conversation of ours in her blogg ! i laughed at it myself :DD silly. hrmm. planned with her about tmr's date just now, i'll just have to prepare my stuff then. we'll be going budget shopping at town lahh, haha. i can't wait for han's yumm mmm. nd grandma said she's going to bring us out to eat tmr ! yayy. food oh food.

wonder how geraldine nd agnes' trip to northpoint turned out like. one staying at the far west nd the other, the far east. my myy lol. well, i didn't do any homework since i was lazy. i feel like a failure in everything :X urgh fuck. alryte, i'm off.

quote by shir // "i want to live life; not just going through the motions, but to feel nd rejoice."

ENTRY : the princess in rags.

so sorry. i'll rant all i want nd i don't care. get lost.

went for study group today at ws library nd macs. there was this 2 girls who came to 'preach' nd interupted our studying 3 times, supposedly from some christian group. nd one of them was a butch. repeat butch, name's natalie. HAHA. oh mann. nd they were kind of freaky.

anyway, studying in macdonalds wasn't really effective. still, about 5 hours of studying beats that previous study day ehehehhehs. still, studies aren't meant to be interesting eh ? :DD oh i got SHAKER FRIES again ! hot thing. nd it was like me nd geraldine were the only 2 who did homework. then later in the evening, agnes cindy geraldine ran off to the playground nd bought food. like hello ? what have the study group became. they don't seem to be in the mood to do homework lahh. but nvm, i tried to finish up most maths. went home around 1900 with agnes. we had a nyce chat about our houses nd school stuff lol, yup. missed my show :\ hmpfs. my life is so dull ahahs. ltr mum's going to bring us out to eat desserts. i haven't eaten dinner urgh, skip it then.

; shirleen. // says:
GOODBYE MY LOVE.

// hehehh. i love my darlingg. yay. we're going out this saturday ! excited, oh yes.

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came back from so-called supper. on the way there, mum was on about pearlyn this nd that. in case u want to know, she's some distant relative. said that she became very pretty nd all. me nd my sister were "oh please, yucks. that bitch". nd serious, she acts like one; no she is alrd one. so irritating lahh, didn't want to know muchh of her. but mum thinks that i'm JEALOUS of her ?! omg she's got to be kidding me. who wants to envy her mann.

so mum continued that i'm a rebellious girl nd my results were not as good as hers. why compare ? its so hateful, so heck with it. says she paints her nails pretty pink nd dresses nyce unlike mine. but hey, i like black so is there a problem ? don't forget that u told me that pink was for 'ahlians' so i almost hated it one time.

fucked up nyte. nd sorry. but urgh, i so detest her. oh nd her dumb mother too, who thinks that a student like me only having 7 subjects is dangerous. sheesh.

mum taught us a bad word ahah. fancy your mother educating you with such stuff. it's either hokkien or cantonese i suppose.

back home was much much better ((: sister nd i fooled around on the roadside with the others behind us. ND SHE PUSHED ME TO THE ROAD ! hahh. mind you, there were cars driving past. so obviously, i screamed my heads off while my mum shouted "want to die issit ?" but i couldn't care less. i pushed her back too xDD then we laughed. everyone looked at us lahh. madd girls ehehehhehs, should have taken the video. joked all the way back, walking nd running in slow then fast motion. the two retarhds. even my mum shouting couldn't stop us, we pretended we didn't know her lol.
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ENTRY : hold on

yesterday was luke's birthday hahah. didn't get to wish him :\ kind of lost his number alrd, didn't stay in touch for long i suppose. went to school in the morning but legion meeting cancelled last minute, since ms raju didn't have the keys to open the convent library. anyway, only 3 of us turned up so it was okay. went to get my shoes from the bookshop uncle ehehehhehs xDD was so f embarrassing lahh.

got some help today from jon regarding amath nd emath. i couldn't really focus on studying though. people walking around lido made me want to laugh. okayy fine, i laughed :X especially the so-called gays hurr. then went back to tiong bahru plaza. bought galato ice-cream nd shihlin's oyster mee sua to share with my sister. hohums. yumm mmm ! had a good dinner i tell u. tired now.

conversations with my friends ((: quite funnaye lahh.

♠♥ŖЭčΩÑ♥♠ .. ♥Ħ.Ë.Å.Ŗ.Ŧ♥* says:
hey
♠♥ŖЭčΩÑ♥♠ .. ♥Ħ.Ë.Å.Ŗ.Ŧ♥* says:
jon ask if she can call you

// hahahahh jon is a new gay huh !

; shirleen. // says:
WHY AM I SHIRLEEN
; shirleen. // says:
HAHAHAH
; shirleen. // says:
I RATHER BE ANYTHING ELSE THAN SHIRLEEN.
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
shir, u wanna be "sotong" then ?
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
ehehehhehs : DD
; shirleen. // says:
I DONT MIND DARLING
; shirleen. // says:
(:
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
LOL

oh myy. tht girl is so nonsense ! lols. but i still love silly her the same.

aye, just saw this advertisement on the new upcoming show on chn5 "CRISS ANGEL; MINDFREAK" nd i'm eager to watch it. haha. okay for now i'm off to catch "america's next top model" yeaps.

ENTRY : surfer girl-

townn today with shirleen nd cindy ((: we walked around but didn't get anything for ourselves mann. from heeren to cine to fareast lols. kind of a lousy budget tym out, it was a rainy day too. we're gonna get the black top next tym eh, cindy ? settled at han's for awhile nd got my rumball, while they got choc eclair nd peach tartlet. played ddr once at cine's arcade which was embarrassing enough. a guy who is about 20+ of age, came up to ask to be friends so many tyms ? omg. so retarhded pls ahahhs. i was freaked out, obviously we rejected.

then got bored alrd, they left early to go home while i decided to roam around wisma hahah. topshop nd surfbabe can be my new friends lahh :DD nyce sales around. there were choc bars nd interesting stuff in topshop. wanted to get surfbabe shorts - but its either no sizes left or not enough money yet. rarrh >:(

went back to tiong bahru which is quite fast, only 3 short stops to cityhall. ehehehhehs. bought something for poohie from the mall nd my dinner too. mmm mm. nd my feets were sore nd hurting lahh :\ very pain lyk f shit i tell u. came back on the laptop, chatted with a few friends that's all. my day's kind of dull huh ? sheesh.

anyway, going back to sch tmr for legion meeting, hopefully they remember. i'll have to get my sch shoes back too. such an ass to throw my own shoes into the wrong room, the classroom which is used for sales of books. since saturday, the teachers couldn't open the locked door so here i am waiting lol. oh yeahh, the wedding was cool with those 6 plasma screens ! st pats played 'all u need is love' quite well ((: yayy.

ENTRY : melty kisses.

so i woke up late nd didn't get to go for churchh mass. lols. got a ride to tuition centre at n2, then met up with shir after it ended ((: we walked around tamp so many many f tyms hehh. at tm, linkways nd the pavilion. saw samantha with some others, yuping nd felicia too. then we settled to play the 'jurassic park' shooting game hahahahs ! quite fun eh ? haven't even got past the middle stage nd we lost lahh. oh myy.

at around 1.35 am, i took a cab from pasir ris to tiong bahru which costed $24 mann. due to the late nyte charges, nd also, the driver didn't return any change. maybe he thinks that i was giving him tips. hahah !

i'm back to the cramped up room with my laptop. dumdumms. just joined this thing at wholivesnearyou. kind of interesting i suppose. ehehehhehs :DD it's only for singapore residents for the tym being. nd u'll just need to verify by smsing stuff, costing only $2 for a whole year. yeah mann.

ENTRY : so they say

i hate guys who make smooching noise. turn-offs please.

met aynn early this morning at tamp macs, she needed to get her stuff for camp. got my shaker fries again, the HOT THING ! ahahs. so anyway we walked around, there was this group of bengs nd some in green shirts. i repeat : i hate guys who make smooching noise. rawrrs. get it ? ate at long john's for lunch, i had chocolate cream pie. mm mmm ! then went to za do eyebrow shaping ((: quite good. after which we went for band practice at 0200. tmr's the big day lol.

i had the most horrendous dinner today mann. my uncle does special cooking ehhehhehh xD but it's still very nyce of him to prepare food for us. erm. very salted steam egg, chicken with too much ginger nd onion, steam tofu with half-cooked salted fish, overcooked vegetables nd uncook campbelle soup :X i still ate it okayy.

ENTRY : BANANAS.

ehehhehhs xD at 0331 this morning i was still busy on the laptop chatting online, but kinda retarhded. its either i'm too high or too bored then. all the funny shit lahh ! hahah. they might be thinking i'm such a dumbass heh. the conversation with guanwei da ge is the worst :\ in a nyce way yeahh. i was a fucking fool laughing to myself throughout the whole thing. we have dead siblings. hurr. then kelsey signed in nd the first thing she asked was whether i've moved house lol ! but no, i didn't. oh she also introduced me to her 'new lover' ahahahhs. it was an alien from the kiddy movie. i had no comments lol

thesecretchokkyfamily. mmm; says:
erm. ur lover is unique
These are the confessions of a broken heart. says:
AHAHAHAHA. THANKS NATALIE. YOU SO MADE ME HAPPY.

humms. aye weird wahahahh.

so anyways, went for legion work today at canossaville ((: fun lahh ? hahas. we played on the small swings which came loose nd almost broke down mann. some sort of vikings lol. after that, went for lunch with clarissa, audrey nd carrisa at pizza hut. the juniors ! hahah we laughed nd joked so muchh. bought the baked pasta set meal, yummy. but i also had my SHAKER FRIES ! the hot thing mann. yumm mmm :DD then we walked around nd to the bedok library too before heading home. no band practice since they said no one would be opening the rooms for us ahahs.

study group settled next week ! nd tmr i'll be meeting noorain first then impt band practice. since the wedding performance is a day away alrd. yup. sleep now, yays.

ENTRY : shakethat-

let me recommend a nyce drink ! it's robinson's fruitshoot in orange with peach flavour ((: i bought it today nd for such a small bottle, $1.50 is kind of costly eh ? ahahs. but worth it since it taste nyce, nd there's a label which says : BY APPOINTMENT OF HER MAJESTY QUEEN ELIZABETH II. sounds so royal huh ! lols.

went for self-practice band today. played the pieces with clarrisa, tella didn't come while cheryl nd fiona are on a holiday mood hehhs. went home with them by train rides. again. everytym i bump into china people or blangahs lahh >:( rarrhh. ya i know, kind of racist. anyways, on the way home i got some mushi's moshis from 7eleven ! seseme, peach nd mint flavours. yumm mmm. then went to tiongbahruplaza find stuffs. bought new pencilbox for next year from preciousthots nd its prettaye in pink with glitter butterflies :DD then i planned what to get for shirleen also. yup hahah it'll be interesting lahh. oh ya SHAKER FRIES are a must-try okays. ehhhehehh yumm mmm ! hot thing.

tmr will be a long day of tough work with helping out nd band practice. hurrrs. i'm not sleepy ! :\ teehees. oh myy. well, nothing much to blog alrd. just chatting with shir, hanwen, jonathan kor nd guanwei da ge ! ahahhs. till another day alryte.

ps i'M MADD. the magazine sort of said something putting in a way lyk as if hero's got bad dressing style. argh.